April 8, 2002

  • Walking around the World Hair show that is in Long Beach all by myself. I had no problems.
    Walking around the LA zoo I had no problems.
    At a party with 30 people....I felt all alone. No one cared if I was there or not.

    I thought it would be the other way around....in large crowds feeling like I was all alone. But NO I liked being there by myself. In the zoo I thought I was seeing some of my relatives. J/K
    At the party, there  were people that I think of as friends but I still felt Isolated.

    I seem to have withdrawn some since my brush with death. I wonder if I am withdrawing to protect those I care about the most.